25; going on 45?

I hate it when you’re purchasing something and the cashier studies your selections, as though it’s any of his/her concern what you’re buying. Especially when what you are buying is personal.

Such was the case at Barnes & Noble the other night. I miss Borders, but I don’t live near one anymore.

I suppose the male cashier at B&N had a reason to look at my purchaes, then give me funny looks. I am only 25, and probably don’t look much older than 22 or 23. I don’t say that with bragging rights, it’s been kind of a curse. But I went to Barnes & Noble, headed straight for the magazine section, which is my favorite section at any store. I “fake” grocery shopping just so I can pick up a few new magazines. I grabbed the new Pregnancy and Newborn magazine, even though I’m not pregnant, and I don’t have a newborn, somehow I feel like having as much information as possible will get me pregnant sooner. It really won’t. Then I looked through the other family magazines, and grabbed Conceive Magazine, and Fertility Today, headed to the Fiction and Literature section, spent some time choosing two Michael Crichton books, then went to pay.

Seriously what has come over me? I have a 15 month old son, and I had a miscarriage. I don’t have infertility issues, I don’t need IVF, I’m 25 and have probably another 15 years left of possible baby making. What I really need here is a whole lot of patience. I’m sure if I had actually thought about why the cashier was giving me funny looks, I could have put back 80% of what I was buying and saved about $30.

I read those magazines from front to back, and I didn’t learn anything new.


1 Comment »

  1. Thi-Anh said

    Hey, I’ll go and read all that kind of stuff too. The only thing is that I spend hours on the internet after Kannyn is asleep reading all that I can. I agree with you on the patience. You’ll get pregnant, it’ll just happen when you least expect it. Try not to “think” so much about it, that may cause your cycles to be a little funky. I know it’s easier said than done. Anyhow, thanks for the email. I’d like to be part of your idea, there’s just so much to write about from sleep issues to birth stories to poop. Great idea, it’s like the mom’s version of “The encyclopedia of pregnancy, birth, and motherhood”. The only issue is finding time to write. šŸ™‚ It’s 4:59am, I just pumped and fed Kannyn. Yeah, I’m a dork. Talk to you soon!

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